After carefully keeping my pregnancy a secret for what felt like an eternity before my 12 week scan, it felt like a relief to reveal the truth to friends and colleagues! I finally felt like I could shout it from the rooftops and as soon as the secret was finally out, I was presented with a 'Baby on Board' badge from the hubster and boy did I wear it with pride! It was strange being able to talk about it so openly after keeping it a secret for so long and even more strange sharing my news with random strangers on the train to work in the mornings. It was like a weight off my shoulders not having to make up elaborate excuses for not drinking at social occasions and for sneaking off to the toilets at work for a sneaky puke or two. We made the decision not to tell anyone we were pregnant until we had reached the 12 week mark because we felt like that was the right thing for us but everyone is different and there really is no right or wrong. I was fiercely protective over my bump and so very aware of how delicate the first trimester can be so wanted to wait until that first scan to know that everything was well.
I blindly made my way through those first 12 weeks in a sicky, dizzy haze and the pregnancy paranoia soon set in, I felt that everyone must know and that I was doing a terrible job of keeping things a secret. I was worried that I wasn't on my 'A game' at work and that my bosses and colleagues would have their suspicions, I was worried that my friends were noting the fact I was absent at social gatherings or "driving again". I even told my oldest group of friends the classic "anti-biotics" excuse to get myself out of a boozy weekend and then had to feign a terrible tooth ache for two days solid and my acting skills are not much to behold! In actual fact no one had guessed and only a few people had their suspicions, the truth is no one really notices because people are too busy with their own lives and in all honestly who cares if someone guesses or people have their suspicions, most people will respect your decision not to say anything and will wait until you are ready. Those first 12 weeks were mine and the hubby's little secret and it was the best little secret to protect!
I think that everyone has their own view about how and when to announce their pregnancy and it totally depends on your own experiences and instincts but it's always best to go with your gut and if that's shouting it from the rooftops as soon as you find out then go for it, if you're like me and you're more cautious then hold back and tell people when you're ready! Pregnancy is an absolute miracle and something to be celebrated!
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